Yeah, Yeah. Here you go.

You asked me to write here because you were getting bored and so, in my endless efforts to please you thoroughly (I'm pretty good at though anyway), I am granting your request. You're probably the only one I'd grant it for. So, here goes...PS: I'm not entirely sure why I'm updating here since we talk all the damn time, but whatever. :)

Student teaching is abso-freaking-lutely amazing. :) I love Blue Springs High School. I love my students. I love getting to teach. Hell, I even love grading and how many teachers can say that? It's so strange to finally be on the cusp of adulthood, to have so many dreams realized in such a short amount of time. All I need now is a job. I had my first interview a couple of weeks ago and it went really well. The HR director said that I was well poised, that I present myself really well and that I have really great things to say. Sounds promising, right? Well, the catch is that there aren't any job openings in that district for a Language Arts teacher yet, so I have to wait...I've had so many people tell me that I'm ready, that I won't have any problem getting a job, but job hunting is nerve-wracking. Can I get an amen on that?

The other super great thing about my student teaching is that it keeps me busy. It keeps my head out of my head which is therapeutic on so many different levels. I've been so much happier and the kind of stress and drama in my life right now is a good kind, the kind that motivates you, challenges you and drives you to achieve more. I'm feeling more and more like the self I was before I got all bipolar and shit. :) I laugh so much now. I didn't realize how much I missed it.

The ex is gone which is good for me. I don't think about him much anymore, talk about him even less. I had to get through that by myself and if you know me at all, you know that I'm a glutton for punishment. I had to be ripped apart before I could put myself together and while I realize that it isn't the coolest thing in the world, it's necessary for me to be me. I learned a lot from him and what's really weird, is that I think I'm glad for that.

I've found myself being able to stand up for myself more, being able to stand fast to my convictions and it is so empowering. The best part about it is that I'm doing it completely by myself. Independently. And the negativity is, for the most part, completely removed from my life. Betcha wouldn't have seen that coming, right? :)

I've made some really great friendships and relationships which I'm very excited about. My sister and I are close in that strange way that happens as siblings age. It's a pretty good time.

And I'm gonna knock on wood right now just to cover my ass, but I think I should say, things are really looking up. :)

And, I love you.

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Arianne