[Solipsism]
n.Philosophy. 1. The theory that the self is the only thing that can be known and verified. 2. The theory or view that the self is the only reality.//solopsist (n.)solipsistic (adj.) solipsistically(adv.) [Latin solus (alone) + ipse (self).]

Venting

26 November 2004
Well, it's been an interesting week. And by interesting, I mean not super fun. And by not super fun, I mean nearly miserable.

There's romantic drama between a friend of mine and a family member and because both of them may occasionally read this, I'll drop it here. Sufficed to say, it's uncomfortable and awkward. And irritating. Let's not forget irritating.

I'm dating a boy, 'P', and we've been seeing each other for a couple of months I guess, but he's decided to be a royal dick as of late. Hes supposed to come home from his mother's house early today so we can spend some time together, but when he called last nite, he said he didn't know if I had "been good enough" for him to actually follow through on that plan. Whatever that's supposed to mean. I haven't seen the kid in two weeks. You think a few hours wouldn't be that much to ask for. He's said some things that have hurt my feelings and this latest development in the "let's not see each other--it makes us want to see each other more" bullshit is nearly the last straw. The only problem is, I really like the kid. Before this, we hadn't had any real problems and got along pretty well. I'm not quite sure what's happening now. MM says that he's just being a dick, that he's trying to make me not want to see him, that he isn't "treating you the way you deserve." And he's right, well, because he is always right, but that doesn't mean a whole lot to me. I've always been a glutton for punishment. More than anything though, I think that I just want us to work out. I think that they will (I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing at this point) because of other discussions, but we'll see...

I'm just tired of feeling like shit because of the stupid decisions other people make. And dammit, I'm shaving today and making myself baby smooth, regardless of whether or not someone's going to be there to touch it or not. Thank-you very much. Have a nice day.

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Arianne

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Arianne. I'm a 22 year old young woman and I'm on the cusp of beginning my entire life, a thought which terrifies and exhilirates me--often at the same time. I am learning to love myself for the first time in my life. I am learning to find true happiness, ready to find love when he's ready to find me and always waiting for something better.
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