And Remain Independently Happy

Okay, so I have these major pet peeves. And I need to bitch about them, so here goes. It drives me nuts when people say they're going to do one thing and then do one another, in particular, when it has to do with making plans with me. It's so frustrating. I think that if you make plans with someone, you should keep them unless there is a super good reason. And, if you must break plans, please have the common courtesy to make a fucking fone call.

Speaking of fone calls, is it so difficult to take five minutes out of your day to return a fone call? especially when someone has gone to the trouble to call you, leave a voicemail and ask you to call them back? C-O-N-S-I-D-E-R-A-T-I-O-N. I promise that your world will not end if you take those five minutes and hell, it just make someone's day that much better.

I got myself all silky smooth, put on matching bra and underwear set (which are so cute by the way), wore a cute outfit, fixed my hair all fun, made myself smell all pretty and got ready for my nite. Or, rather, what I thought was going to be my nite because he never called. And I guess that it doesn't surprise me all that much because it's almost becoming a habit (even though I don't want to jump the gun and make assumptions), but still. Like I said, it drives me nuts. I know that he likes me. He tells me that I'm pretty. The other nite while we were cuddling in bed he told me that he loves spending time with me, that he loves holding me in his arms and that he likes being with me because I challenge him to be a better person. I don't know why I still freak out and wonder if he wants to be with me. There are no real signs that he doesn't...I just don't like this whole "up in the air" thing.

And I guess that it's pretty pointless to even talk about it because talking about it here doesn't change a damn thing. And I sound mad, but I'm not, just frustrated. I mean, it sucks to feel like you're being blown off.

Then I tell myself, "Arianne, calm down." The situation is probably that he got home from the test, took Tommy out and then came home and crashed. He probably didn't have the energy and I understand that. I'm not mad. I just wanted him to call.

But, such is life.

...or so they say.

Grrr!
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Arianne