[Solipsism]
n.Philosophy. 1. The theory that the self is the only thing that can be known and verified. 2. The theory or view that the self is the only reality.//solopsist (n.)solipsistic (adj.) solipsistically(adv.) [Latin solus (alone) + ipse (self).]

Look! It's me!

12 September 2004
I've spent way too much time with myself this week. Fortunately, I've learned that when that amount of alone time exceeds a certain limit, I must make myself sleep. I have a tendancy to make myself crazy sometimes.

However, this will not be spent recounting everything that could have been or everything that was. This is going to be for highlighting the things in my life which make me happy right now.

There is one person in my life who has taught me a great deal about myself, about friendship, about love and even about my own life. It is a great thing to feel as if you don't need to be afraid of anything. I am having a good experience being completely me while letting someone know who I am entirely. It gives me a great deal of hope about the way the future might work out for me. This friendship has made me see that there really are things about me that someone else could fall for. It cleanses me.

I'm beginning to see the reward in the near completion of my education. It is a milestone in one's life. I feel overwhelmingly satisfied. Even at ease. I'm able to do a fair amount of self-reflection and I'm finding that I have come an immeasurable emotional distance. I've spent a lot of time sort of freaking out about many things, but I'm learning to see that everything really will be okay. Because it has to be. I won't let it work out any other way for me.

And I wanted to finish this, but now I think...no. :)

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Arianne

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Arianne. I'm a 22 year old young woman and I'm on the cusp of beginning my entire life, a thought which terrifies and exhilirates me--often at the same time. I am learning to love myself for the first time in my life. I am learning to find true happiness, ready to find love when he's ready to find me and always waiting for something better.
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