This Just In.

Today was my last day at Ruskin. I'm happy to say that it was less than bittersweet. I didn't want to be there in the first place and I couldn't wait to leave. All was not lost. I learned a lot about how -not- to manage a classroom. I guess on the flip side, it's a pretty good thing to know.

I was expecting a call that didn't come. I think I should learn not to expect them and just take it as a "hey, how's it going?" thing when someone says they're gong to call. I'm not upset or anything. I don't like when people say one thing and do another. I just find it irritating. I should cut the kid some slack however. He's juggling a lot of balls at the moment and I feel like it's almost unfair to ask him to call or see me.

But, I swear, everyone has five minutes sometimes. Can't you just call and say, "Hey, not much time to talk, but I said I'd call and figure that I'd make good on that."

And other things.

Do you think anyone will want to be with me? I'm only 21, but it feels like I should be headed that way by now. Of course, recent statistics show that the average age a woman gets married is 27, so I'm cool as far as that goes, but it sure would be nice to find someone to share things with on a more personal level. I crave that intimacy and I don't find it often enough to feel satisfied. In that respect, I'm fairly closed.

Not to mention that whenever I seem to find a guy who isn't half worthless, I don't ever seem to pan out to be the "good enough" girl. I wear the second best hat.

And then I think that at ten till three on Saturday morning, I should have popped a sleeping pill looooooong ago.

Signing off--

Arianne